The Healing Begins

It is now 12 days since my surgery. Do I feel better? Well, yes and no. I certainly am not feeling as flat as had been. The demands of eye drops, to stop rejection of the graft and to lubricate my eye - made me recall the constant call of a newborn baby. No sooner do you feed them than they need changing and burping and so on. But after about nine days Dr H wound back my eye drop regime. Now I am about four times a day with an ointment at night.
He says things are healing and my eye certainly looks a lot better.
I complained that the graft felt like an ill fitting hard contact lens I longed to take it out. In fact, one night when I was feeling really tired I popped an eye patch on because I feared I might accidently try to pop it out.
Dr H, examined my eyes and said there appeared to be a slight buckle or crease in the graft. My words but I think that it what he was saying. Generally, he would put in 16 stitches. In my case he put in 17. However, it might require one more stitch.
He must have seen the look of fright on my face. I think he regards me as a very nervous patient. I probably am but maybe I seem nervous because I say what I am thinking.
He said he would give the graft three weeks to settle down. Fingers crossed it will work itself out because I am not keen on going under again.
He directed me to the eye chart but I still cannot make out any of the letters. I could lie because I pretty well know them off by heart. But that would be cheating. And one thing I was clear about what that my eye would be worse before it got better.
I have found that really difficult to manage. Over the past few days I have ventured out but find the loss of sight in my right eye means I find it difficult to judge distances on my right. I am quite nervous. I have no doubt that I will adapt to this. I had plans to provide more posts on this blog on a more regular basis but at this point I am finding my eyes very tired. I was due to go back to work in a few days which would have given me two weeks sick leave. However, I do not feel able to spend more than a hour or so sitting at a bright computer screen. I will see how I feel next week.
I have my fingers crossed that things will fall into place in the next week or so and I can start resuming some of my normal activities. But I can't see a time anytime soon that I will feel comfortable enough to drive. Before my operation I was classified as being legally able to drive wearing my contacts. With one gone I don't feel confident about my own or anyone else's safety.